Imagine you on the table. Expands helplessly. The buzz of prayers of young doctors, ready to mingle with the knives. Bleeding red blood, Flowing from your veins, Dark colors, Not lost in a flash.
I threw it all away, that bad thought. Abominable torture, For my mind, My blood tribulation for me. A cluster of helpless cups, Numbers bounce inevitably, Tears no longer useful, Humming unstoppable verses, As if I’m going to die today.
When I wanted to run, I turned frantically into the past. To remember, Vision is brief. But … Flood, Mountain erupts, Rain storms, hurricanes, Attacking sadistically. I am ashamed, “my suffering is meaningless”.
My defense should not be cracked, My strength should not be torn, I cultivate this guts, watered millions of love, Humans around me. I do not deserve to surrender, I am against the devil’s villain, Yang void the virtue, the blind knight against the pain.
Blister and stained, Mirror protective wall, Abstinence desperate, To survive, Survive without attacking. Istighfar, I admit Your pleasure, I Admit my Sins, Forgive Me, Irhamnaa yaa Arhamar Raahimiin. #.
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Hi, Mbak Risty! I might not have all the story figured out here, but I sure hope you make your stand. Salam.
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Hai darling.. it was about my husband, he got bypass femoral surgery. Right now he is still struggling with his deseas. And yes… I am stronger than I thought. Thank you so much my dear
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I have, FINALLY, returned to a SOME/ SUM’S ONE that IS more intriguing than “the search”. BLESS YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hi Risty…just checking in to see how you are. I hope to see you blogging again!
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Hi Rob..
I want it too. I was busy with husband since 2017. My husband had been sick. Now, he is not fit yet. wish him fit again as before. Miss to read yur pages also.
Regard 🙂
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I didn’t know that you got married. Congratulations!!!
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hehehe, thanks . I got married on 25 dec 2015
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Then belated wedding wishes!
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thank you so much ❤
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The inner struggle with the adversities of life more if it is your husband. Well, keep recovering. A great introspective
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Thank you SO much. God Bless You ❤
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